Hey peeps. Please, don't find this hard to believe. I meant, in this two weeks of semester break, I haven't been updating much. Well, frankly, posting entries didn't seem like the thing I wanted to do.

But, I guess desperation forced me on. So here I am. Tomorrow will officially mark the commencement of Sem 2. I think I'll need a lot of luck on this one. Sem 1 wasn't all that tough, but it definitely wasn't all that easy either. I'd say the same thing. It's really hard to blend in. So, I think, I'm done trying. Because believe me, everytime I do try, I make an effort, I get all emotional. All of this will then bring me to wonder why would I ever go to the trouble of throwing myself at that state. I won't have any problems toughing out on my own. I guess. Or at least, that's what I hope. I will walk alone, in the compound and I will find myself strutting proudly, even with only the proximity of air. I promise.

Growing up is hard. But..,



I know I have become the person I am today, partly was because of her. Whatever happens, I know you'll be there. And, you know I'm always here, ears at the ready and a heart repleted with sincerity to match.

Uhmm, 1.14a.m.. But I just needed to blog.

To tell you the truth, I'm still having an emotional turmoil. It's not doing me any good. That's for sure. I'm still having difficulty wrapping my head around it. I can't understand why.. people couldn't write on wall. No, I meant, wall. The thing that they do when you're running out of the C. (Just a little discretion. I think it's needed.)

So, have you heard? That The Flirt by Kathleen Tessaro is really good. And, i'm reading it again. Cuz' some books are just too good to be read once and tossed forever.

I've also been watching America's next top model. A few cycles. Hmm, I watched the whole of cycle 12 but i'm not very happy with the winner, but i'm happy with the finalists. And then I watched cycle 13 and 14. Two of which, I just watched the finale. LOL! Couldn't really get through with the feeling. You know, like, getting all excited and then being let down because the winner isn't the one you expected. Gosh, and watching them reminds me just how nasty can people be. This girl went all "I don't want to make any friendship or some sort. I'm not here for them. I'm here to be a model". Like, whoa! And they were a lot of bickering, gossiping and mostly backstabbing. All of which reminded me just how much I hated high school. But, screw it, I just watch.



Okay, for a moment, I just blanked right there. I didn't know what to say anymore. But before I actually signed in, I thought I had tons to talk about. So, I think this has taken long enough. Oh by the way, I'm heading to Pavilion this Sunday. I have every intentions to save money. So, that's what I'm gonna do. So, mummy is gonna buy me heels that I needed.


Good night, peeps.

Patience, love.

Finally, shopping, today,right after Biology test, which I would so cordially add, was the last paper. Imagine my relief after all the all-nighters.

But, the torture didn't end just yet. I have not one, but four lab reports to complete. What makes it worse is that due date is tomorrow and we were only informed of it, today right after the test.

Oh yeah, trust me, I see the irony.

Anyway, pictures won't be posted up here. And, you know why. Just, not now. I didn't get anything, though. Even though, well,there was actually this dress from Topshop that (I think) looks good on me. And, you know the typical range of prices of the dresses from Topshop. But, I was thinking that I could do with sacrificing three Topshop dresses to get one from Bebe. Call me crazy, but Bebe trounces well, anythi.. brand, all the time. What i'm waiting for is the right dress, FLORAL DRESS,to be exact. The last one I saw that I liked, well, I missed it. I called and ask, remember? It was sold out. And, now they have another two. But uhmm,not exactly the one I wanted.

Uhmm, enough of the ranting. Though, the truth is, I still want that floral dresss.
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Whatever. Enough of rantings. Pictures will be posted up here, eh-ass-eh-pee.

Lemon Garden Cafe @ Shangri-la hotel.

Oh yes, that's where I went.

Their carbonaraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. *slurpsslurpsslurps*

Give me a good three days and I'll feast your eyes with the pictures on fb. So, do look out for album named after the title of this post.

Judging from the way I ate earlier, next Wednesday will officially mark the start of my brand new, inspired diet plan. It's gonna work this time, I promise, to myself anyway. You know, my college's cafeteria sells really good sandwhiches? And, even though I picked wholegrain bread everytime I make a purchase, and that I choose stairs over lifts at college when I get to class(not to mention that all my lessons are all being delivered in fourth-floor classrooms.), they aren't much help. Some people just aren't blessed with good genes that allow high metabolic rate.

Flabs on the waist and arms, I'm gonna kiss you good bye! Hopefully, a fortnight is all I need.

Mummy promised new pair of heels. Yay! Beige, brown or green? Maybe beige.

Believe it.

There're things I found utterly unbelievable, like, just recently.. *clears throat* I screwed my Eald test. Yes, flunked,upside down! The essay part, espeecially. Can't believe i'm actually typing this. Seriously! god-knows-how-many-pages-were-provided for the essay part but probably one set of paper alone could've killed an entire forest, and guess what? I only wrote an inane 1 & a half pages.

The last time I got my Eald essay writing test back, I cried. One thing I can't believe I ever did in mylife, again. It's English. Sighh, maybe it's really time to realise that I need serious improvements on my language. When almost half the class got not more than 10 marks over 20, I actually, secretly was praying that I get a good 15 and above.
And, then, I got a freaking 13 over 20. Oh you know what teacher said? I know i'm not supposed to repeat this, but screw it! She said, there're actually some parts that DON'T DESERVE THIS MARK THAT YOU HAVE NOW, but I find the way you write is very different, so I gave you this mark. Yes people, the only reason I got this stupid mark was because what I wrote slightly deviated from what the question asks for. I even got one paragraph scribbled at the side by teacher as 'irrelevant'.. in RED! Talk about a stab through the chest.

sigh sigh sigh. But.. c'est la vie. I'm prepared to meet my fate I don't really deserve for the Eald test I just screwed.. I think.

On a lighter note, I am going to Shangri-la hotel for another round of buffet, tomorrow! Maybe food is just what's right for the wounded chest, not the empty stomach.

lay off this facade,already!

And again, I thought you were different.


I don't freaking like the way you talk about my friends. And really, you are at no liberty to tell me what to do.